Its a hard choice to make

The admin already ask my 40 member of the band since last week but i delayed it not by ignoring it but today, i dont know why its the hardest part for me to make..mybe all u guys been asking why im acting weird during the training n break a sudden stop..hmm..im breaking up guys..cant have the heart to see u all not going..even akak suggested me to do solat istharagh tonite..yeah mybe i fo dat..